Mafia Hearts

The Difference Between Care and Control · Chapter 6 of 6

Chapter 6

By My Life Story Editorial · Published · Updated

Three months changed the Costa estate.

Not completely.

Men with guns still guarded the gates.

Visitors still passed through security.

Damian's business remained something Tessa asked no questions about and wanted no part of.

But the east wing felt different.

The nurses received specialized training.

Two staff members who treated patients with open contempt were dismissed.

A geriatric specialist redesigned Beatrice's routine around familiarity instead of efficiency.

Her favorite music played quietly in the mornings.

Meals appeared at consistent times.

Photographs were labeled.

Lighting was softened in the evenings.

Tessa completed formal dementia-care training paid by the estate.

She was not a nurse.

She never pretended to be.

But she became Beatrice's companion-care coordinator.

Her salary allowed her to stop waiting tables.

Her independent attorney reviewed every page of the contract and, to Damian's annoyance, changed seventeen clauses.

He signed all seventeen.

The legal challenge to Tessa's predatory debt also succeeded in exposing inflated fees.

She still owed money.

Just much less than she had been told.

Every month, she paid it herself.

Damian hated that.

He respected it too.

Their relationship evolved in small ways.

Coffee appeared on Tessa's desk each morning.

She accused Damian of bribery.

He claimed it was operational efficiency.

She learned he hated cinnamon.

He learned she put hot sauce on scrambled eggs.

She learned that when he was furious, his voice became quieter.

He learned she sang badly when she thought nobody was listening.

And both learned that Beatrice had a talent for creating awkward situations even through dementia.

One afternoon, Beatrice looked at Damian and Tessa sitting on opposite sides of her room.

"Are you two married?"

Tessa nearly dropped her tea.

"No."

Damian answered at the same time.

"Absolutely not."

Beatrice frowned.

"Why not?"

Tessa coughed.

Damian stared at the ceiling.

"Ma."

"What?"

Tessa stood.

"I'm going to find your nurse."

"Coward," Beatrice said.

Damian laughed.

An actual laugh.

Tessa stopped at the doorway and stared.

She had never heard it before.

He noticed.

"What?"

"Nothing."

"You looked surprised."

"I didn't know you could do that."

"Do what?"

"Sound human."

His eyes narrowed.

She escaped before he could answer.

But not everything improved.

Beatrice declined.

Slowly.

Then rapidly.

There were good mornings when she remembered Tessa, Damian, and events from decades ago.

There were afternoons when she forgot how to use a spoon.

Nights became harder.

She sometimes wandered.

Once, she tried leaving the estate at three in the morning because she believed Damian was waiting at elementary school.

The doctors warned them.

Disease did not negotiate.

Love did not reverse neurological damage.

Money could make her comfortable.

Nothing could restore what Alzheimer's continued taking.

Damian began spending more time with his mother.

Real time.

Not security footage.

He canceled meetings.

Moved paperwork to the east wing.

Read aloud.

Badly.

Tessa corrected his pronunciation of character names.

He threatened to ban her from the room.

Beatrice sided with Tessa.

Life became strangely ordinary inside a house built for anything but ordinary life.

Then, one December evening, Beatrice developed a fever.

By midnight, it was high.

A physician arrived.

Then another.

Pneumonia.

Damian's old instincts returned instantly.

"Get her to the hospital."

The doctor hesitated.

"We can."

"Then why are you standing there?"

"Mr. Costa, before we move her, we need to discuss what your mother wanted."

Damian's expression hardened.

"I know what she wants. Treatment."

"Her advance directive says comfort-focused care if her dementia becomes advanced and recovery is unlikely to restore meaningful function."

Damian stared at him.

"She's sick. Treat sick."

"We are treating her."

"Then treat harder."

Tessa stood near the window.

She recognized panic disguised as anger.

"Damian."

"Not now."

The doctor continued calmly.

"We can hospitalize her, use aggressive interventions, possibly restraints if she's confused and pulls at equipment. Or we can provide treatment here and focus on comfort."

"Which keeps her alive?"

"That's impossible to guarantee."

Damian turned away.

Tessa followed him into the hallway.

"Don't."

He spun.

"Don't what?"

"Turn this into a problem you can threaten."

His face went cold.

"You have no idea what I'm doing."

"I know exactly what you're doing."

"She needs a hospital."

"Maybe."

"There's no maybe."

"She wrote down what she wanted."

"Years ago."

"When she could choose."

Damian stepped closer.

"You think I should let her die?"

Tessa's face changed.

"No."

"That's what you're saying."

"No, Damian. I'm saying loving her doesn't mean making every decision based on what hurts you least."

The sentence struck.

Hard.

He looked away.

Tessa softened.

"When Emily got worse, I kept saying yes."

He looked back.

She rarely spoke about her sister.

"Every experimental treatment. Every procedure. Every new doctor who said maybe."

Her eyes filled.

"I wasn't asking what Emily wanted anymore. I was asking how to make sure I didn't have to lose her."

Damian said nothing.

"The last week, she finally told me she was tired."

Tessa swallowed.

"She said, 'Tess, you're fighting because you love me, but I'm the one getting punched.'"

Damian's shoulders lowered.

"I still hate myself for making her say it."

"You were trying to save her."

"So are you."

Silence stretched.

From inside the bedroom came Beatrice's weak cough.

Damian closed his eyes.

"What do I do?"

It was possibly the first time in his adult life he had asked someone that without already having an answer.

Tessa touched his wrist.

"You go in there."

"And?"

"Sit beside her."

So he did.

For four days, the east wing became its own world.

Beatrice drifted in and out.

Doctors administered antibiotics and oxygen at home.

Sometimes she recognized nobody.

Sometimes she called Tessa by another name.

On the third night, she woke at 2:14 a.m.

Damian sat beside her.

Tessa slept curled in the wooden chair.

Beatrice looked at her son.

"Damian?"

His head snapped up.

"I'm here."

She studied him.

"You stayed."

His throat tightened.

"Yeah."

"Good boy."

He laughed once through tears he immediately tried hiding.

Beatrice reached toward Tessa.

"Tessa."

Tessa woke.

"I'm awake."

"Come here."

She moved beside the bed.

Beatrice held their hands.

Then looked at Damian.

"You look different."

"How?"

"Less angry."

Tessa murmured, "Debatable."

Beatrice smiled.

Damian gave Tessa a warning look.

Beatrice's eyes closed again.

"You two make too much noise."

"We weren't talking," Damian said.

"Exactly."

Tessa laughed softly.

Beatrice fell asleep still holding their hands.

The next morning, her fever broke.

The doctor was careful.

"This is good, but she's fragile."

Damian nodded.

He understood now.

Good days did not create guarantees.

They created good days.

And perhaps that was enough.

A week later, Damian invited Tessa to dinner.

Not in the staff dining room.

Not beside Beatrice.

Downstairs.

Just them.

Tessa stared at him.

"Is this a work meeting?"

"No."

"Are you firing me?"

"No."

"Did I break something?"

"No."

"Then why?"

Damian looked unusually uncomfortable.

Tessa's eyes widened.

"Oh my God."

"What?"

"You're nervous."

"I'm not."

"You are."

"I've negotiated with people holding guns."

"Apparently asking a woman to dinner is harder."

His jaw tightened.

"Are you coming or not?"

"That sounded like an order."

He sighed.

Then tried again.

"Tessa Miller, would you have dinner with me?"

She smiled.

"Yes."

At dinner, there were no bodyguards at the table.

No files.

No cameras.

No discussion of debt.

They talked about Emily.

About Damian's father.

About what Beatrice had been like before she became sick.

About mistakes.

Tessa discovered Damian hated beaches despite living above one.

Damian discovered Tessa wanted to see Yellowstone someday.

Nothing dramatic happened.

That made it one of the most important nights of his life.

At the end, Damian walked her to the staff parking area.

Tessa stopped beside her car.

"This is complicated."

"I know."

"You are complicated."

"I know."

"Your life scares me sometimes."

That, he didn't dismiss.

"I know."

Tessa looked at him carefully.

"If this becomes something, I can't become something you own."

Damian's expression changed.

"You won't."

"You say that now."

"No."

He stepped closer but did not touch her.

"I've spent my entire life confusing protection with control."

Tessa waited.

"I'm trying to learn the difference."

She searched his face.

Then kissed his cheek.

"Keep learning."

She got into her car.

Damian remained there after the taillights disappeared.

No security monitor.

No hidden camera.

No distance.

For once, he had been inside his own life when something good happened.

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